“I just need to step aside to let the Divine Essence overflow with joy and love.”
I grew up in a small, idyllic village in Southern Norway as part of a large family. The majestic nature and nearby ocean were my solitude and resting place, where I connected to God. It gave me peace and a sense of being.
I also found a belonging and strength in sports, school, friends, music and arts. Our family home welcomed many interesting people from all walks of life. I loved to listen to conversations about philosophic topics, religion or existential life questions. It kindled in me at an early age a longing to know who I am and find answers about spirituality and Truth.
When I was a teenager I fell into a deep depression, mainly because I experienced a rape. I felt like a ceramic pot that had been broken. These were hard years, but looking back, it was most likely one of the most important things that happened to me. Because during this rape, I had an out-of-body experience and I heard the voice of God saying: ”You are not the body, and you can never be harmed”. I also was lifted up into the light, and in a way the insights during this experience saved my life.
“You are not the body, and you can never be harmed”
The Japanese have an art form called Kintsugi, where broken pots and mugs are mended with glue and gold, and they look stunning in their imperfection. They have a philosophy rooted in Buddhism called Wabi-Sabi. Something that has suffered damage and is given a new life has a history, which makes it stronger and more beautiful and unique. In this intuitive way of living, the natural cycle of growth and decay are accepted and the beauty lies in the imperfection.
Life applied this glue and golden paint and slowly mended me. Piece by piece, until the Vimal pot was rebuilt again, more beautiful and strong than ever.
This mending journey made me leave my country as a young adult to live in several different countries. It took me to therapy, meditation, travel, art and design study, religious books, teachers, healers, spiritual community, tribes, teacher trainings, courses and many glimpses and mystical experiences. All this brought me closer to who “I am”, to the full understanding of what God meant that day of the rape.
Today I do not see myself as a broken pot anymore – instead I see a beautiful, whole, organic, strong woman who shines her light bright and golden. It’s the imperfection that makes me perfect. Without life’s hardship I had most likely not begun this travel and quest around the world, only to find that it’s all inside of me. I am not a victim, I am here to share love. I found the inner voice and I listen to it now. I understand that life is too short to not cherish it and I like to share it with others. I like to laugh and not take myself or life so seriously. I choose to let go and to forgive all people from the past. I see that every single person has this essence inside.
A humbleness has arisen in me rooted in the knowing that I actually only know a small fragment of what is possible. The awe of life and nature is hitting me again and again – how beautiful and complex it all is! I want to take care of myself and everyone in this amazing, mysterious existence! I know I am here to serve this immense Divinity of God that streams through……I just need to step aside to let the Divine Essence overflow with joy and love.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frighten us. You’re playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others”